all i want are answers. am i wasting my time? i'm not sure if this is completely pointless and if i should just move on. fuckkkk. i want to be happy all the time. unfortunately thats almost impossible. i love my friends and they make me happy but theres always something more i'm missing.

Fuckkkk. Why does that seem to be the most frequent word out of my mouth? Summers been aight, minus the fact that its been either cold or raining the entirety of july. I noticed i'm rarely happy when i'm home around my family. They all annoy me. I wish i could just take a break from them for a little bit. Although i have grown a new appreciation ( Read more... )

Wow i realize i only ever write in this when i'm upset or ecstatic. Maybe i'll delete it, noone pays much attention to it anyways ( Read more... )

I welcome the end of the worst week ever! I made it so that counts for something. And to top it off i'm not in a "yellow" mood lmao. For as much shit i've dealt with this week i'm feeling better. As down as I felt on sunday, things are looking up in that department? hopefully atleast. Keeping busy has helped i believe. Although i think i do too ( Read more... )

cleared up mixed feelings. hopefully.
holding hands is fantastic.
stage crew is also fantastic, and quite amusing.
new goal: im gonna be happy and nice too everyone, unless they're mean to me =] really short post but im tired sooo goodnight<3

ski club last night =]] i finaly got to use my christmas gift! lol well i spent most of the night with nick and brigham then a run or so with everyone then me and kelly went off and ended up helping alyssa teach jill how to snowboard. gotta love people stuck in middle school lmao. well i had fun but now im sore and ive been sick so this is a double ( Read more... )

So, here's how it works ( Read more... )

living life one day at a time is both thrilling and desrtuctive to me right now.
fun night. great friends. cute boy. and whats a night without the annoying girl noone likes =]
high school is becoming LAME. lets go get our college boys chandra lolz.

ahhhh! im on the largest mental high ever! Circa Survive are amazing!!! the show was sooo perfect=) and since i dont wanna be annoying im doing as mo suggested lol. in ne of circas new songs anthony green sang to me like the whole time making eye contact=) then i got to meet him after and he was like thanks for being first row and singing along ( Read more... )

found the purse thank god