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when the lines overlap
someone commented previously that if i was that concerned, then i should shift to a more private site where i can finally reveal my private thoughts and feelings to the world. however, said anonymous person fails to recognize the fact that a journal is more than just a place to express one's thoughts or rage against the world but also personal ( Read more... ) -
because i am free.
Since I woke up really early this morning and decided that i had nothing better to do with my life (and having exhausted Jstor for reports on Singapore), I shall blog.
The other day, while reading someone's exciting blog, I realized that there were 3 distinct types of blogs. One delved into the mundane things in life such as blocks and basically ( Read more... ) -
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i just feel so shitty, absolutely discouraged. why did i study so hard only to fail so badly. in crowds you have the tendency to pull yourself together, your composite self, that crumbling hovel, and seem okay because it isn't cool to disparage over your results; but so what if i want to? when I have been trying so hard and not getting anywhere, i ( Read more... ) -
it's the subtropical high; not some aleutian low
wow i did not expect this but distance only makes me feel as if I appreciate your voice more; perhaps we have not talked in ages but this distance, and hearing it one more time only and probably makes me appreciate it more. our paths have criss-crossed and crossed again and again before diverging again, probably unaware that we might meet again but ( Read more... ) -
stretching your hand out;
a video etsuko posted on facebook (talked more about it later with her) really reminded me how living life actually means and it most certainly does not mean, if i may borrow Atwood's phrase, living it with a chapped tarpaulin skin, because being unfazed and appearing unstartled only means that we will never stretch our hands out and catch the ( Read more... ) -
fucking screwed.
note: this post reveals my deep seated insecurities and is written in the most incoherent fashion possible, read at your own discretion ( Read more... ) -
Debate, SMUN, and a huge hole in my life;
I really hope studying and general excellence in academics does not fill that hole in my life, currently shaped in the size of a... I don't know. It is rather alienating and sick that I end up having nothing to do at this point in time and wind up questioning the purpose of my life; why should I wake up tomorrow morning? I woke up this morning ( Read more... ) -
gah.
i can't seem to tell you the truth; but talking to you in a veneer of lies seems to be killing me inside.
i don't know if it is true or i'm just making it up because i'm hungry.
so much has been happening recently yet and i'm still bored out of my mind. i think i need more friends. -
blank verse
today i logged into facebook and realized the madness involved in my life thus far. I have dropped a substantial amount of friends and people i can count on, i have just stopped connecting and I guess at the end when you look back, you will not believe how many people you have lost contact with along the way. yes we do try and fb message each other ( Read more... ) -
apprehension
the impending HACAS exco elections has been causing a lot of furor for me and the circles around me, i certainly just hope that the right people (ie. myself) get elected into where they want and should be elected into. the exco candidates seem pretty screwed up already so I don't know why I care so much given that the greater organization seems to ( Read more... )