Cycle

[rideronthestorm]

Aside from screaming Money for hours at a time in the evening I've been alone. It's strange to see myself now, a native NYer talking to people outside of the city more than actual friends. I don't hang out with anyone and no one calls me, I rarely call because I don't want to go clamoring for friendship and attention, but really- no one. ever.

Comments

[shootershoother]

Why is it that this journal entry of yours summarizes all that I have been feeling and thinking for the past several months.

I am leaning toward the edge of my seat and motioning back and forth.

This is going under memories.

More of heart than of mind that someone would want to leave something they have grown comfortable with.

Logic keeps you where you are right now.

Regardless of how much you are hating it.

Either or is not guaranteed happiness.

[rideronthestorm]

Your use of rainbows is how I feel about everything. I wouldn't wish this feeling on anyone, I hope you break free and make your mark. You're a very unique and special person in this world. Secret: I admire your style.

thoughts

[idolsbitch]

Have you ever heard the statement, wherever you go you take yourself with you? Maybe the change you need to make is not a location one? (though on a smaller scale i think moving into a different place in ny might be a healthy choice for you)

If you're doing the same things over and over and expecting different results, then maybe its time to admit your way isn't working? There are plenty of choices of ways of life and thought that are not pure solitude buddhism and are not sold out main stream life either.