I wrote a poem last night after pondering about things so here goes. It is titled "Waiting ( Read more... )

I have no idea. I feel like I am waiting for something that isn't really there or will never come. Almost like a figment of your imagination except it really does exist. I am worried about my KBPS friends since I have not heard from them in a long time. I got a call from Jess E but I was not home and she won't pick uo the phone so I am very worried ( Read more... )

I am really hot and in a really bad mood. I don't know why my mood sucks so much it just kinda does. I got hit on two days ago while babysitting which made me look like a horrible babysitter. I still care about Zack even after the entire situation, I don't really want to since it is pointless but I just can't stop caring about him. It really upsets ( Read more... )

Merf is a perfect discription of my day. Nothing too interesting happened. I went to therapy which sucked but it wasn't completely horrible. I walked around with Paige my therpists do for a while then turned around went back inside and got even more bored. My family went mini golfing but I didn't really want to go.....I don't like feeling like a ( Read more... )

Yesterday was fairly boring! I was dragged to an aquarium and it smelled like dead fish it was disgusting. We walked around in the aquarium for a while, I went on my usual smoke break, came back inside and had to look a penguins that smelled worse than the fish themselves. My sister gets pissed at me because she says I always smell like smoke and ( Read more... )

Mew! I am tired.......I am pretty happy though. I am trying to quit smoking....I am only allowing myself one pack after I finish the last 2 or 3 cigs I have left of my Marlboro Red's. Then I get the loverly "patch" to help me quit since it is actually severely hard to do. I have been invited to a Halo 2 party with Parker people except......I am the ( Read more... )

I am alive! Last night I was running around the center of Sterling instead of going to the battle of the bands since only two sucky bands were playing. I got a pack of Marlboro Red's and a lighter! :D I am pretty happy right now. I told Zack I liked him but hung up before he could say anything after I told him. I dunno I just kinda freaked after ( Read more... )

I dunno what to do.....I like Z again.....I don't understand. He probably doesn't like me and I cannot not like him this is annoying. I am depressed about alot of things and I dunno what to do about it....I just feel like crap I really want a cig. Harvard Pond today was fun I had a good time but I don't know why I am now depressed I just am. It is ( Read more... )

Meep, so ya I am doing ok but a little upset since I really don't want to go to Harvard Pond. I loathe bathing suits very much especially when I am with the school. I could suck it up and go or I could well.....just not. If I honestly wanted to go swimming I would not go with the entire school. My family is bitching at me telling me to go and that ( Read more... )