How many more times will I meet a girl that just doesn;t cut it? When will I find a girl I love as much as her, but loves me back? I know she cares about me a lot...but is it the same way I care about her? Have I once more become the guy that is only good as a friend? Does she love me just as much as I love her, only she doesn't realize it? Are all ( Read more... )

Its quite strange being inside my head. Sometimes it seems as though there are two of me. Well, perhaps three. The third seems to be just an observer. I'm pretty sure that at one point in time, however, there was minus one (ok, im gonna go with just 2 personalities, the observer doesn't count right now...). Im not entirely sure exactly when this ( Read more... )

I really want to move back to carbondale, this weekend really made me realize how much better off I was down there. In a town like carbondale, there is fertile soil for any dream to manifest itself into the role of one's life. I think it has something to do with all the youth in the area...but I really dont know, its just this sort of "hopeful" ( Read more... )

Stalemate. When there's nothing left to do but to avoid defeat. That's where Im at. Im going to join the coast guard. And when I come back, I promise she will be mine. I wont let her go. not this time.

So what happened. How come everything tells me that guys are the ones who just want sex, and girls are the ones who want a relationship? So what if I want a girl to hold, and to hold me, and have mutual loyalty and trust and work our way towards love. Every girl i meet just wants to get laid. are all the good girls really taken? is that whats wrong ( Read more... )

So, lately, ive been feeling a bit under the weather. I shouldn't let my single status define me as a man, but yet I cant help but to crave that feeling of being, at the very least, infatuated, and at the very best, in love. I realize that in the weeks to come I won't really have time for a girl, but that doesn't mean the desire is not there. I've ( Read more... )

God! I'm such a pussy.

So Ive been thinking lately...a lot about girls in particular...and right now I feel like my ideal girl would sit up with me all night drink hot chocolate, listen to some jazz or soul (bill withers!), and read comics with me. But you know, not like across the room...sitting together, with her head on my lap and a stack of her favorites by her side ( Read more... )

It is utterly amazing. Working at a convienence store really changes ones perception about our worldly co-habitants. All the different minds and personalities that exist within such a tiny area paint a glorious picture of culture and companionship. I cant believe i get paid to do this!

It's finally over. I have passed through purgatory and ascended before the judge. My life is working its way back together piece by piece. I have begun one job...and its working out pretty nicely. I really enjoy working with my co-workers...but what i really enjoy most is interacting with all of the local personalities. EVERYONE comes into Nedza's ( Read more... )