so i chased you off and laugh about it now

will i ever be able to get far enough past the physical aspect of people to just be happy with who they really are?

i have a boat ride in new york coming up.....i just have to decide if i want it to be a daily farey, a 3 day cruise or a life time voyage.

:)

 i really fucked up.... :(

i guess tom will tell, i have my fingers crossed

 i spoke my mind and got nothing more that what ive been giving but im a-okay cause ill always be okay....it doesnt take a rocket scientist or a trauma surgeon to figure that out

or does it, either way this smile hasnt left my face once :)

after hour s of tossing and turing in my bed, i finally decided to get up and eat. i guess i have too much on my mind for it to relax ( Read more... )

i dont want to call cause i havent been called

i dont wanna give you a reason cause im not getting a reason

but maybe if i call you, you'll call me

and if i exaplin my feelings to you....ill as well understand

i figured it out!!!!

its all clear to me now...

how much one guys likes and pays attention to you its inversly porportional to how much the other guy likes and pays attention to you

now i just need to figure out how to balance this equation, hopefully this wasnt that day i decided to skip math class lol

ive read my horoscope countless amounts of times today...

i need somekind of answers, i need some kind of direction

i need to know whats gonig on, i need to know what i should do

why cant i just sit back and enjoy the ride?

didnt i just say a few posts back i like the akwardness of the unknown?

 after a long string of good....some bad must follow, its like all part of nature

no biggie, no sweat, nothing i cant tackle

but i dont know what to say or if saying anything would be whats best

thia is a match made in heaven, i gotta stand up and fight.....

or is what makes it a heavenly match that it requires no fight?

my heads in a whirl

 all this confusion has actually turned out to be enlightening

i dont need to know what i want, because its not like i get everything i want anyway

im enjoying the thrill and frustration of the unknown :)

 what im doing is wrong i know, this is MY battle victory, ive earned it....so why do i insisted on sharing my lime light with you ( Read more... )