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[rilyn]

I've come to the realization that I am a bad friend. This is made worse by the fact that I don't /care/ that I'm a bad friend

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[rilyn]

I think part of my concern arises from the fact that I don't maintain long-term friendships. I used to be the type of person who threw myself entirely into my relationships with other people, and tried to become as central to their existance as they were to mine. And because of that, most of my old friends are extremely codependent, needy and sort of self involved. I look back on the last five or so years of my life and realize the only people I still like are the ones who I never spent that much time with. I don't want to become some intregal part of another person's life beyond that of my significant other, and it's largely because I don't have the emotional energy to maintain the types of friendships I used to have. I'm still figuring out how to just... hang out with people. Just like I never learned how dating works, i went from being single to being in a relationship without any of the preliminary stuff