What i'm posting, or why. Its probably for 2+ years i've loved him, and now i have to stop, well honestly i should have stopped over a year ago. I think maybe he doesn't understand the depth of my feelings. Maybe he's scared of his feelings. Maybe he just placates my affections ( Read more... )

I don't expect anyone  to see this save maybe Jeremy as he's on here alot and i doubt anyone else really would notice, but I'm lost. I've spent the last two years of my life being in love with someone who isn't in the same place as me emotionally. He may never be for all i can tell. ALways interested in whats new and exciting, while i am ( Read more... )

so he's gone i have the place to myself, for a little while. i think i'm gonna make a resolution this year, i just wish i had someone to push me in the right direction. i want a riely. or a max. god i'm so orrendously co-dependant. Work sucks, but i love it. i should quit smoking. bah. go to a doctor. get on brain meds again

I realized today quite suddenly and without warning that i became a worrier... i person who worries needlessly i remember being the only person in the room who didn't give a shit about anything, living life as it came at me a minion to higher powers i couldn't understand like fate and luck. i've lost that edge in myself. I've never really had a ( Read more... )

i've deicided to post an entry cause i feel a bit down on myself and i don't know why. i just need cheering up i guess...

also.... Martin klebba is hawt...

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Pirates?

thanks elin

i'm hungry, i hate semi dieting... and diety foods they should just fill them with MSG >_>

ZOMG RAT FLAIL OF DOOM

Bah well my DND game went off without a hitch, if anything it may be too big for its britches, but i can deal with that. Monday night was a blast as always, Lindsay is always fun to sit around in a pub with. Work was hard and i'm hungry all the time now...ALL the time!!!