PLAYBOY MUMMY

[riotgrrlhotel]

Although I was throrougly mentally prepared for all this - nearly 39, one in five pregancies don't make it-  it hasn't stopped me feeling a nasty little monochrome cornucopia of feelings. My fault. My fault for leaving it so long. (Yeah, didn't get much of a choice in that.) Guilt.Disappointment. Abruptly being almost literally thrown around the

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[riotgrrlhotel]

Thank you so much. I am trying to take care of myself. But it means a lot that someone knows what I'm going through. *hugs*

[neonfaerie]

Oh sweetie. I'm so sorry. Call me. let me know how you are doing. I'll be in the country for work for a few days, but would love to see you when you're feeling up to it.

[riotgrrlhotel]

I'd love to catch up. There's a new crappy exorcist movie coming out next Thursday..maybe we can make that? I'm doing mostly okay; it's just when facebook 'friends' make a big song and dance about how yay! They're not pregnant and wouldn't it suck to be pregant!! Wooyeah..I feel a little...gagged. Like I want to say "that hurts", but I know this is my private thing to go through. But I'm okay. I look forward to seeing you; the crappy horror is just the icing on the cake. xxxx

[lizbee]

I'm so sorry. I can't even imagine what you're feeling right now.

[riotgrrlhotel]

Thanks Liz. It's hardest because I feel like people are comfortable with putting up death notices for people, celebrities and pets..but I feel if I mentioned miscarriage, it would be 'TMI'. It's a weird kind of grief that for whatever reason, makes you feel you have to keep it secret. But it matters that you thought of me. Thanks <3

[lizbee]

My mother suffered several miscarriages, and she encountered the same problem. Being Catholic, she wound up dedicating a lot of Masses.

[riotgrrlhotel]

Not really an option for me! But thanks for thinking of me.

[luminousdaze]

I'm very sorry for your loss.

[riotgrrlhotel]

Thank you, lovely. x

[collectingbees]

I am here if you need me.

[riotgrrlhotel]

Thank you sweetie.