I'm really bummed out I can't be there for my grandpa's service today. I'm upset that I don't get a chance to read the letter that I wrote to him. It's being read for me by someone, but it's not the same. I don't know why I'm posting this here, maybe because I want this all off my chest, and I want to get it out. No one reads it anyways so it doesn ( Read more... )

I don't really know how to put this into words, but I just feel so lucky right now. I definitely feel incredibly fortunate that I'm able to study in an amazing (although slightly rainy) city, at one of the best institutions in the world, but this weekend, I noticed things that I haven't been noticing... and I know how easy it is to get wrapped up ( Read more... )

I have a new bedroom. No more sharing a room anymore ( Read more... )

+ It's friday ( Read more... )

I've been roaming around, I was looking down at all I see ( Read more... )

wow, it's been a long week. Had a gazillion orchestra and quartet rehearsals, but now I'm on reading week and after work tonight I get a bit of a break. I just went back and read all my livejournal entries from January 2008, which was a really strange feeling. It did remind me of how much I trust you though... Also made me remember a song that I've ( Read more... )

ugh. anxiety is back. don't know why.

Don't exactly have anything to write about. Have felt kinda shitty the last week with an upset stomach... and have been finding it a bit difficult to just sit down and take in a deep breath. I might just be pushing myself a bit too far this term. This week looks okay, busy day on Monday, but other than that it will be pretty easy. Today, I've just ( Read more... )

I had a really wonderful week. Besides failing my keyboard test... the first of many weeks from hell went great. I did well on my conducting exam, and I had a really good lesson. I had orchestra yesterday, completely hungover, but it was all modern stuff written by Academy students and it really made me have to think hard. I spent today ( Read more... )

Don't really know what's wrong the last few days. I chalked it up to PMS, but I should be fine now. I don't know. I'm mad at you, and I shouldn't be. I have no reason. I'm just mad that I can't have what I want right now. I'm mad that you can't give me it. I'm mad that I know you're right. I'm mad because I feel like I have to waste the next few ( Read more... )