why does this always happen to me?? what did i do that was so fucking wrong? hell, people always wanna mess with it and it pisses me off! every damn girl ive been with has really hurt me..well, they all have, they all cheat on me, lie to me, play with me...im sick of it. i know i said some mean things, but hell, i was in a bad mood and took it ( Read more... )

Yesterday was horrible, i was sick off my redneck ass. I keep havin whores ask me out, hell.....they dont have a snowballs chance in hell with me, i, picky when it comes to my gf's. there are probaly alot of nice girls out there, but i cant seem to find them, all the girls i know are whores, drink and smoke all the time are care more about ( Read more... )

ahh fuck yay! ok...im hyper.....really hyper. damn sugar.....asehdfcw.. ok, anyway, i miss talkin to noel and miranda, i hurt them both, so they have a reason not to wanna talk to me, i really feel bad about it, i was confused and i didnt know what i wanted....i didnt mean to hurt anyone

Noel and i have alot in common...we've both been hurt and used. its a sucky feeling, at first i was glad and even happy to see her hurt, because, hell, i was feelin that way. i love noel. ive been on 20 dates and all ended in failure. they all like me because im cute, not because im a sweet, loving, trustworthy man.

i feel sorry for Noel, shes goin through the same shit i am. i love her and she loves me, but it will be hard for us to be togather. i went to the fair thurs night, i won so many stuffed animals, hell, ill use them as target practice lol. boom boom!

oohh fuck, my fuckin head...wow, last night was a fucking mess, i wrecked my car, spent the night in it, and i wake up with a fucking headache. damn, thats fucked up. i need a gf, noel played me again dammit.

I was stupid to think noel didnt love me, shes my everything, my love, my life and im so happy we're back togather. Noel, i love you princess! *sighs* i was about to give up on love, i really was, but, im so glad i didnt. Im so happy, i really am. "if you love someone, set them free, if they come back to show, then you know it was ment to be" ( Read more... )

love is real! this is soooo great! me and noel are back togather. yay!! this is.....wow....i cannot belive that me and her are back togather. i was stupid to think she DIDNT love me.

im giving up on Noel...she was the love and light of my hopeless, pathetic life and shes gone. Love is a waste, she never loved me and i was so fucking dumb because i believed she did. why am i such a damn fuck up? why do i mess EVERY DAMN THING UP?? why cant i love and not get hurt? why? huh? because love is NOT FUCKING REAL!! THATS FUCKING ( Read more... )

i been cutting again, maybe ill get lucky and cut too deep....then the pain will end forever. i have no will to live, i dont care about myself or what happens to me. Noel, WHY DID YOU HURT ME!!! i been crying my eyes out for the last 4 months, ive tried to kill myself dozens of times. looks like i fuck everything up ( Read more... )