I feel so closed up. I have no way to express what I am feeling.
Alone.
Lost.
Scared.
Lifeless.
Burned.
Need.
Knowing.
Angry.
Want.

Everything is about me getting my life together, for me. With only me to worry about. All I have for her is the feeling of wanting to feel wanted. I need to feel needed.

We have talked about it until we are both blue in the face. I just am so brusied from past girls, I can't figure out how to stop being jealous and how to trust her. She keeps saying she won't give up on me but we have trust and attention talks at least once a week and I know it drives her nuts and I know one day she is gonna have enough. I just ( Read more... )

This song VERY VERY much so explains how my parents have affected me emotinally. Different parents go too dif parents. If you know me, you might be able to figure out which parts go to who ( Read more... )

So I found this on my Facebook. and as I read it, while I feel I have a bit more drive and direction alot of the feelings are exactly the same so I thought I would repost it on here. Somethings have changed slightly ( Read more... )

Nothin' about you is typical. You got me all twisted and confused. Up until now, I thought I knew love. Pattern to fall as quick as I do. Nothing will be ( Read more... )

Saturday night, home. It horrible outside. I slid worse than I have all winter this morning. Ive had a stomach ache all day and feel like Im going to puke.
So put it together... Beck misses the party. I was okay with this with the thought I would be talking to her at this moment.

"It's hard to not like someone that likes you" -secret life of an american teenager. That line keeps going through my head.... What if she only likes me because I like her. Because I tell her she beautiful. Because I know how she feels and I treat her how she should be. But does she really like me? Or once some else comes around, that she might ( Read more... )

****Trying to start this blog up ( Read more... )

So its been umm... 4 years.... and honestly im pretty sure nobody will be reading this but maybe it will be good to have a journal/blog that isnt so public but public enough that I feel i might get some attention. Because really that is what blogs are about. Great invention to share our words and feelings in hopes that someone out there will ( Read more... )

Hey people! hehe I got a new gf! Im so happy, shes amazing! and Im thinkin shes gonna treat me right! hehe Im so excited.... sucky though she lives like 45 min away....all well she is gonna be here hopefully thursday and friday and then we will see eachother some next week then my first new year eve not babysitting, I get to spend it in her arms ( Read more... )