Man....Im not really sure what to write. I am full of so much pain and confusion right now. I feel lost like I am in a tiny boat in the middle of the ocean and no matter which direction I look, it all looks foreign and unfamiliar. Something so very important to me is slowly crumbling and no matter how hard I try and hold all the pieces together, I ( Read more... )

Throughout my life, fear has been a powerful force that has directed me at times. Fear of the unknown happens to be the fear that paralyzes me. Whenever I have tried to get clean, the fear of what withdrawals will be like was so great that I would keep using out of fear. Not knowing outcomes freezes me in my tracks. As far back as I can remember, ( Read more... )

The past 3/4 weeks have been a rollercoaster if the rollercoaster dipped into fiery pits then surfaced for a few moments of pleasant wind. Stressful would make a shorter description. I have been going to therapy which has actually been helping. Being able to talk about your feelings without being told they are stupid, too emotional, ridiculous, or ( Read more... )

feeling good today. This might be 2 days in a row that I am feeling better. I got dumped.. But im ok

I wish I was a flower ( Read more... )

Sometimes it is hard letting others be who they are, especially when who they are and how they act is not in agreement with what you think.
That even includes people who talk about me or hurt me. Everyone has a right to be who they are. Sometimes I let those people affect me.
But...I need to let others be who they are because I would not want ( Read more... )

I know its been awhile LJ.. sorry about that ( Read more... )

There is not enough time.
Ever
Please give me more time.

so yea
l8r

Hey Janet. I saw where you posted on my journal. I really need to talk to you. If you would please give me some contact information I would appreciate it. I have something that I need to tell you.
An email address or anything. please.
:)

So I am kinda broke..But I have cut several heads of hair this weekend so I will have some moola in my pocket. Last week I had SOOOOO much school work that I had to take a day off work and cut another day short. this caused me to have my lowest paycheck EVER ( Read more... )