I don't know where to start. I kinda just had this urge to throw down words somewhere and figured this would be the obvious place to do it. My other thought was to maybe draw something just to let my mind empty out onto paper. Though that probably wouldn't turn out too well. Anyways. Lately observations have been taking on a deeper sense of things ( Read more... )

Been up all night staring at you ( Read more... )

Love is so funny sometimes.

Well either way I think things are good for now. I may not have gotten what I want but it's okay. I'm being greedy and selfish and not really thinking about what people really want. Just kinda tired of not being able to get what I want but at the same time I don't wanna change who I am to get to that point. Oh well, I'm just making things harder ( Read more... )

I'm not sure what's going on. It's as if the world is trying to bombard me with stupid shit! Ha paranoia i'm sure. Did I mention i'm no longer jobless? Indeed. So I make sandwiches now and deliver them too. Oooo. But it comes at a price of course. I'm now in debt to someone for getting me the job and although I know how i could repay it, I feel ( Read more... )

So where was I? I really feel like I've been losing myself more and more. I feel no positive attachments to anything at all. Like I'm losing my grip on the things that matter. I mean not in a stupid way like 'I don't give a shit about my family' kinda way, but more like I just don't know what my mind is trying to tell me. I also feel like I'm being ( Read more... )

I had another dream last night. The second in god knows how long. Nothing like the first, but just as much of a mindfuck. Sometimes though I do wish the dreams wouldn't end. To go on forever in a constant daze of not knowing what's real or fake. But then my mind would take advantage of me and beat me senseless until I couldn't cry anymore. ( Read more... )

Well see what you wanna see. You should see it all.
Well take what you want from me. You deserve it all.
Nine times out of ten our hearts just get dissolved.
Well I want a better place or just a better way to fall.

I dont know whats wrong with me. i have great friends, mostly good co-workers, money, a car, people think im cool i guess, and my family is cool even though theyre way too straightedge for me sometimes. so why in the hell cant i shake this feeling. things are great. but i wake up everyday and feel exactly the same. emotionless exterior, emotional ( Read more... )

And although the words they speak may or may not be true, it makes no difference to my mind. Fake, fickle emotions bound through flesh and bone. This isn't an existence worth much. Nothing comes through silent screaming but that feels about right. Look around you and tell me you don't see it. It's in the people you don't think twice about. It's in ( Read more... )