Lately I have not had much happiness. A lot has changed some for the better and some not for the better. What it all boils down to is my job. Everyday I wake up dreading that I'm going into work to be this assclown that I'm not. The company makes no sense and is ridiculous with its expectations I wonder if they realized that they hired human ( Read more... )

Wow it's 2009 already. I can't believe how much time has passed this is crazy. The other day I was going through some things and I pulled out an old cd case of cds I use to listen to when I was a senior in high school. I put a few in and it brought back some memories of being a young punk ( Read more... )

Lately I been wondering a lot about the future. I know I have beat this to death in past entries and in my thinking everyday but it's still effecting me. When you live your life use to going to school, having breaks from school, and sometimes working minimum wage jobs on the side. Then to start working full time with no breaks other than a personal ( Read more... )

Lately life has been harder than I ever thought it would be. Sure I been through tough times before and had many challenges but I always persevered. I have had issues with the opposite sex and college but never to the degree of what I'm facing now. When I was a college student I always was under the impression that everything would work out ( Read more... )

It's been forever. It's not because my life has been boring because it most certainly hasn't. I guess just a combination of being lazy and busy too opposite things that I been consumed with for the past 34 weeks apparently. Anyways lately I have been interviewing like crazy trying to get a entry level management job in the hospitality industry upon ( Read more... )

Well summer 2007 is now officially over. It was quite a ride a lot of good and bad moments but in the long run I think I became a much better person than I already was. It started pretty decent the landscape was a tad bit different than last summer but life changes and different people enter and exit throughout the course of life. Well this summer ( Read more... )

Well I finally finished up my second semester at Umass. I have to admit it was pretty tough but I ended up finishing strong with 2 A's 2 B's and one C in Dr. Fernsten's class. That class was like impossible though not to mention he's the worst professor ever at least I won't have to deal with him again. So during finals week I became sick so sick ( Read more... )

Well it's certainly been a while since I've had time to sit down and spill my guts via livejournal. Well my life has certainly been changing for the better, the spring semester is almost over and what a triumph but I still stand strong and ready to take on the next batch of classes. I was worried about what to do for my living at school situation ( Read more... )

Well school as been stressful as of late, love life is totally non existant as usual, social life at umass is the same way, and now that I think of it it's almost the same at home. But I don't mind it at home as much as here at home usually I just hang out with Ben and Sean and we hang out at Ben's and drink, watch movies, and play video games. It ( Read more... )

Lately I been overthinking a lot of things. It seems like no matter what I just can't make myself happy I always feel like I need to be something more. I keep looking back to my past to when I was 17 to when I really first discovered myself and it seemed like I had a great road ahead of me but lately I been thinking it seems like I never took any ( Read more... )