Some (although only a small portion and not the main issue) of the reason why my life totally obliterated into a thousand pieces last year was caused by everyone's inability, or unwillingness, to sit down and talk out our issues with each other. In February, one person woke up and decided, seemingly out of the blue, that she didn't want to be my ( Read more... )

The year that was 2008 did not offer much in the way of happiness for me. The few good times I had were vastly eclipsed by the horrificness of everything else ( Read more... )

Clay sent me a message yesterday telling me, basically, to get over the sadness and loneliness I've been feeling lately. He said that he has a job, an apartment, and family nearby and yet he is still unsatisfied. Then, he went into a paragraph about the meaning of life, what it is, why we're here, and his overall doubt that there is a meaning to ( Read more... )

What a strange few weeks it has been. I went to the reenactment at Lake Frederick, which was a total wash. Right after we arrived, Judy called me retarded. I know she said it without thinking, but it really upset me and I was in no mood to be happy the rest of the day. And on top of that, she feels that I had no right to be upset, although even my ( Read more... )

This weekend I went to the Civil War reenactment at Cedar Creek in Middletown. We left Saturday at about 12:30. Originally, the plan was for Brandon and Wendy to pick me up in their RV. However, when I opened the door, I saw William standing there. Apparently, there was some sort of misunderstanding or timing problem, so, in one care, William, ( Read more... )

So, Chelsea Handler of "Chelsea Lately" on E! can go f--- herself. She was talking about blind people protesting the "Blindness" movie (which I totally agree with by the way) and she was saying that how did they know it was about them anyway and blah blah blha. She usually makes fun of a lot of people, not just PWD, but she went a little far this ( Read more... )

I am so messed up, and probably will be for the rest of my life. Part of it has to do with the ignorance and horrible treatment of people based on my vision, but most of it is because of my mother. She is a woman who pushed her daughter away when she tried to give her a hug at age 8. A woman who, when her child was a pre-teen, told her that she ( Read more... )

Church and state should ALWAYS ALWAYS be separate. That is, if we enjoy our freedom and democracy. In the past, history has shown that when churh and state are in a close relationship, bad things come of it. Anyone ever heard of the English Civil War, which was basically fought over religion? All the religious wars of the 17th century, the wars ( Read more... )

One armed paper hanger. I have tried writing in here three separate times since two weeks ago. Yet, every time I get a sentence completed, the phone rings, my computer messes up, or somee other interruption occurs. The biggest thing has been grad school though. I have been running around without a clue for two weeks trying to get applications ( Read more... )

Not having a job is a pain! And not being able to get one is an even bigger pain! Another friend of mine just got one, so I'm the only one other than my ex-roommate who doesn't have one... I'd have a freakin' job too if I could drive. I could cast my net a lot farther and be in timbucktu for all I care. But I can't because I have a lot more to ( Read more... )