Well, another step into the right direction. I just wrote M that I date Dennis. Not for showing him what he lost or anything, but for myself... by telling him that there is a new one I get more distance to him. The hope is still there and I want it to die. I need to have enough stength when I finally see him again in two or three years and I don't ( Read more... )

Ok, finally I'm back to normal, I'm still happy, but no more grining or problem to concentrate on things. Dennis is still not writing or talking about his feelings, but at least I got an answer to my text message (I told him that I slept bad and that I already miss him) which said "I slept sensationally good, felt ok, but had kind of a bad day, but ( Read more... )

Hmm, do you think it was a good date when we kissed more than we talked? And how can I get this silly smile out of my face...?

Hopefully you'll see more photos like the ones I posted this weekend now(huh? Didn't see those, show me). Don't know when I see Dennis again but I feel good and I think he feels good too, at least I hope so.

Dennis starts to annoy me... he is weird...

Yesterday I finally got the answer to the email I send to Dennis. Basicaly he answered within a day, but it still felt very long. He had a look at all my photos which is cool.
He also wrote that he couldn't really sleep monday to tuesday. Concerning to tsgg because he thought about us, ll. I wrote back that he better stayed because he either slept ( Read more... )

Sigh, I got unsure about everything again. I mean Dennis could at least send a sms or something, but he just doesn't. Why? Because he is that way, but I'd love to hear from him no matter what and if it is only a "hi, just thougt of you, how are you?" that's perfectly fine. But sigh, I also send an email and he never answered. It was nothing ( Read more... )

Hmm, by the way: Mark wrote an email for valentines and said that he missed Germany, hmm...

85%.... 85% is the possibility that Dennis and I will come together. Yesterday was a very nice night, also nothing happend at all - oh well. He come over at aout 2030 and we decided to stay at my apartment. We talked about everything but not us and I know for sure now that we could both win a "who is the shyest"-contest... but oh well. After 2, 5 ( Read more... )

Ha, I got my date with Dennis. I really did it and put a valentinescard on his car, so he send a text message this morning, that he was really happy about it and that he didn't call because so many things were going on - hmm. However, now he will come to my house at about 2000. I feel nervous... I wonder what he wants to talk about or if the ( Read more... )

Hmm, I wonder if there are guys on this planet which call when they promise to....
I still don't know if I should place this card on Dennis car tonight, hmm...