This week is a really good week actually. I been doing my thing, my head is still clearing even more and it is surprising how fast that is going after so many years of blah blah. I am able to handle so many big things very clearly and concisely and none of it is making me fall down. Although today I think it has caught up to me. I am all blah. Well ( Read more... )

These days are being quite nice to me :o))) Keeping to my goals seems much easier and nothing is too much of a chore anymore and I am quite enjoying myself. I don't have to push myself and I don't have any anxiety probs when I walk out that door anymore, just the rush of looking forward to having myself a nice :o))) John is on my mind all the time ( Read more... )

today was hot hot HOT!!! LOL Those damn emotional roller coaster rides can be torture, I tell ya. I'm getting better, though, and they don't last too long and it stops before I even start falling now. But god, when I get a day like today, when I just feel normal and enjoy being me without any worries, god, they get better every time :o))) WOW ( Read more... )

I hate Valentine's Day. Well, not really, but I never believed there should be one day of the year set aside for showering someone with love. And what of single people, or people dealing with a breakup? Seeing all this V-Day stuff everywhere can make some people feel so bad. Most suicides are committed in February in the Northern Hemisphere because ( Read more... )

I want to write oh so many things (none of them to do with ogre) but I don't want to look like a complete tit writing in many entries in one day LOL ( Read more... )

Thank you, jb, for yanking me back up on my feet again :o)))

I wonder.....

If he knew all my secrets, would he decide to let me go to spare me the pain? Would he decide that's all for the best? It's totally his way of thinking. I can't take that risk. Hence he can never know. Ever.

I wrote this as well but laters than the last one....
(It's abt time I learn to use my journal...)

One day you told me a secret ( Read more... )

I wrote this a while ago when I needed to get it out......

When something arises, we don't communicate in the same way, and we will always end up locking horns in the end. If we can't break that pattern it will happen over and over again, which always ends up with us tired, frustated and feeling hurt and betrayed ( Read more... )

January has been the month of u-turns. What was thought of as totally impossible at the beginning of the month, has now become possible. Nothing is sure, but there have been alot of u-turns.

Hmmm, I am moving out of my psychic phase and into my philisophical side.