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[rmiller10002]

look, liz i dont want you to worry about me right now, just worry about figuring out how to be happy with yourself, and love yourself for who you are. I love you for who you really are, and i hope you you can love yourself for that too. Just dont go getting massively depressed and do anything rash. Ill be waiting here for you, theres no need to

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[sexy_bitch4]

I do still love you, please don't ever forget that.
I really do wish this could have happened in person so I could explain myself better. I'm sooooo sorry, but just remember that I will always love you and I'll be here for you as much as I can.
(I'm still writing to you too, and I still think we will be together in the end)
Matt thank you sooo much for doing this for me. (this is the you I love and will forever)

[rmiller10002]

i know you love me, and i wont ever forget that. i wish it couldve too, and i know you could find a way if you really tried, but i dont want you to risk losing your family completely, not for me. I dont want you to have to deal with something like that. I dont want you to hurt at all, or be depressed at all, but atleast you have company in that department, lol. Ill always be here if you need me, and if you still want to try to have me go with you to either of your proms, if you think you are ready to have contact with me again (but make sure you really are, i dont want you to go through the turmoil and confusion), ill go with you, by your senior prom, i should have my license, since my parents said theyll take me this month or something to take the test. I do believe we will get through this, and i do believe we will be happy together in the end. Its the least i can do for you though, i wish i could get your parents to just let you be your own person and make your own choices, and if theres any way i can i will.

[rmiller10002]

I wanna try meeting with all three of you and talking, or in some way trying to straighten some things out. I wanna try even if it wont help, i wanna show them that i have the courage to say im sorry, and to stand up for you, and to stand up for us. I want them to be able to respect me, and i want to atleast try, even if they never will. I love you liz, and you are worth everything, all the confusion, all the god damn drama, you are worth dealing with it all. Just promise me you wont go back and forth about your choice over and over again, and that you will use this time to truly become happy with yourself, and grow as an individual. I fell in love with you because you were your own person, and i also saw who you could be. I see within you so much passion, so much talent, intelligence, strength, love, and so many other things that i know you can be. I love you liz, and i just want you to be you, because i love you for you, and because i dont want you to go through life pretending youre someone else. I said i would do anything

[rmiller10002]

oh yeah, could you please undelete sb4? i wanna be able to read your writing that you posted. it helps atleast a little bit. and if you want to post anymore of your writing, id like to read it, ill comment on it if you want, but you dont have to reply. i think i know why you took this lj off your friends list, but if you want to add this one back to your friends list feel free, ill post anything that is meant for just you to read in longjohn from now on, so you can read it there, ill post normal life stuff (if there is any normal life stuff, lol) in here. you can contact me on either if you need me, and i wont contact you unless i truly need you (i.e.: death in family, or im in the hospital, lol). I will be here though, waiting, if you decide before you are 18 that you want to contact me. Oh yeah, and if you cant reach me by LJ and you truly need me, just come find me, or call me, and ill drop what im doing to be there for you. I know you would do the same. Well ill keep writing to you in my notebook, and ill think of you

[sexy_bitch4]

longjohn is still on my friends list for Crazy red.

[sexy_bitch4]

just incase you ever REALLY need it, or I need you.