so it looks like i have no choice then, apparently a friend of hers thinks im some sort of monster, and that ive been causin all this shit to get worse, and that things were fine before i came along. i dont know maybe they were maybe they werent. And she apparently thinks im not good enough for a certain girl. I do love this girl though, and if ( Read more... )

so i found out that a certain someone that i trusted lied to me for sure about atleast a couple things, and im hearing multiple stories about a certain recent event. And now things are even more confusing and fucked up. If that someone is reading this, or the other lj, then i need to know whats really going on, because the whole back and forth, ( Read more... )

so today sucks already. Im late for class because i feel like utter shit, AGAIN. And then when i have all my shit there for orchestra, and had reschedule my private lesson to a rather inconvenient time, because of the damn rehearsal, apparently the conducter cancels last minute, leaving a message with the school, and not calling any of the ( Read more... )

so is a certain person ever coming online again or even reading my lj?

:x: name = Matt ( Read more... )

ok so today sucks ass. I feel like shit, bad enough i had to leave work early. I havent been able to sleep or eat like at all, and anything i do eat tries to come back up. Im fuckin nausios as heel, and woozy, and have a splitting headache, just great. That and i cant even think straight. And now my dog has less and less energy. Hes not gonna ( Read more... )

well today sucks already. i couldnt even wake up or think straight for the concert this morning, so suffice to say, my feel was way off, and i was distracted as hell, by some things. I had to force a bagel down this morning, and a fish filet and small fries just now. Those almost came back up too. Apparently my stomach doenst like food right ( Read more... )

tomorrow should be fun though, i have a concert that i have to be there for at 10 am at CCM in the B cafeteria, which starts at 11, and then i have an overdubbing session at 3, and then an orchestra rehearsal at 7, so im at the school all day. lets see if i can manage to sleep at all, or eat anything by then. somehow i doubt it, and apparently my ( Read more... )

its a long ass one, but read every single word, or else, j/k ( Read more... )

look, liz i dont want you to worry about me right now, just worry about figuring out how to be happy with yourself, and love yourself for who you are. I love you for who you really are, and i hope you you can love yourself for that too. Just dont go getting massively depressed and do anything rash. Ill be waiting here for you, theres no need to ( Read more... )