Hopefully "Keep It" is the last time the old, scary Amanda writes in this livejournal. God that Amanda even scares me. But hahaha I kicked her out; and while I don't know how much she may appreciate it, I am loving it! She held me down for way too long. I am turning into Mr. Ito, referring to myself in the third person. I love that guy he is ( Read more... )

I AM SOOOOO HAPPY. Where is this coming from? I just did kartwheels in my room. I love this feeling, I can remember what it is like again. I missed it so much! DOn't go away, oh please God, don't let it go away! I don't wanna be that ever again; feel that ever again, I never wanna feel like I'd rather be dead again! I LOVE THIS FEELING, I ( Read more... )

Why can't I just keep things to myself? That's what I really want but I can never end up doing it cause there's so much stuff going on in my head alittle just ends up spilling out. But then I always regret talking about it which adds more doubt which just causes worse overflows. I should really stop this cycle, make a dam or something. Cause in ( Read more... )

I don't know what you expected me to tell you. What you wanted me to say. You don't really care, you just feel special if I talk to you. You pretend like it matters to you, but I know its for your own feelings. You don't care at all, it's only when you're bored. Have you ever stood in a room screaming at the top of your lungs and everyone just ( Read more... )

Today Emily, Hannah, and I went to Riley's water polo game in freaking tacoma where we almost got shot. WEll first of all, I drove and the traffic weas really bad, then we got off the wrong place on the freeway because someone does not know how to give directions and someone else does not know how to read directions. But ya pretty much so we're ( Read more... )

You all think that I'm the one ( Read more... )

I knew a boy once ( Read more... )

I don't know what I'm going to do ( Read more... )

God where are you ( Read more... )

I'm happy, I'm joyful ( Read more... )