Nano starts in just a few hours ( Read more... )

Life is good.

Therapy went fine today.

Have both clearer values and goals.

Am now freaking the capital F out.

Why?

It is dry and warmish today.

Perfect for giving my shaggy lawn what will probably be it's last mowing for the season.

I am still sitting inside in my pajamas contemplating another Valium

and not at all interested in the yard.

Does anyone have any spare motivation they wish to sell?

My family is giving up on me.

At the same time they expect me to stand with them as they rally around someone else.

How do you rally around a stranger with whom you share blood while you are dying?

So, boring blog of doom ( Read more... )

It is hard to blog and avoid your life at the same time ( Read more... )

I usually start writing in some form or another about this time of year ( Read more... )

So, I've been reading lots about Borderline Personality Disorder.

Pretty much all of the books say:

"People who know and/or love someone with BPD, the people with BPD are going to be jerks. Deal with it or leave them."

and

"People who have BPD try not to be such a jerk, ok?"

It's a wee bit frustrating.

If I keep this up I may officially change my blog's name to Boring Blog of Doom - the way Rai gets to sleep.

I have a new friend - sort of.

She is as high strung as I am and I think I finally know what it is like to try to become friends with me.

I'm sure people looking from the outside cant tell if we are dating or friends or strangers from moment to ( Read more... )

My really boring blog of doom actually helped me rest better last night ( Read more... )