quiet grey morning

[roadnotes]

It was grey and foggy a little while ago; now it's a pale blue-grey sky with white clouds shading out of it (is there a word for when you can't see the edges of the clouds, because they're fading so subtly into the sky behind them?) Still no new temp job, and I'm feeling better (been under the weather for several days, including one of high fever

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[sculpin]

Do other people do this?

More like I look back and think, Ugh, I should have done that. Someday I'll learn, I hope.

[wild_irises]

I'm nervous that you're not working, but it's nice to have you back!

Also, glad you're feeling better.

[roadnotes]

I'm unhappy about not working, too, but I am sending out resumes, and trying to be calm.

[ladymondegreen]

Do other people do this?

I've taken to doing it after finding myself in various toxic social situations.

[nickelchief]

do other people do this?

I did, once. You were around for it, that time around.

S/he had a history of falsifying information in various online forums and asking for money (which, like an idiot, I doled out). A little research on my end exposed one of his/her ruses as a bald-faced lie, and I called him/her out on it publicly. This individual promptly disappeared as a result, then returned briefly with another set of fictional disasters (the worst yet!), and disappeared again. Since then I've lost track, though Facebook informs me he/she still exists.

It didn't feel so good to shut down this person's online life, given how clearly delusional and f-ed up his/her life was. There was real pain there. And I still think about it. But I wouldn't change a thing - I'd do it again if there were another appearance this time around.

Gut instincts

[watashi]

I have learned to trust my gut and have realized that it's not worth doing all that extra work for someone who is just on the periphery of my life. If it's someone I'm close to in person I might talk to them directly about it, but if it's not, I trust my instincts and just delete and avoid them. Ignoring my instincts has never led to anything positive.

I'll keep my fingers crossed for you to find a good job soon. Job hunting is awful and being unemployed is rough on the soul and your self-confidence. Treat yourself with kindness and love. <3