it's been awhile since the tears fell. i guess it's about time then. i'm so tired ( Read more... )

cuz love's given up on me ( Read more... )

i found this letter for you that i never gave you just now while i was going through some papers throwing things away. i forgot just how much i cared....

I've got myself into quite a mess now haven't I? I know saying I'm sorry a million times won't help, but I really am. I know you've been hurt and the last thing I want is to hurt you again. I ( Read more... )

sometimes i wonder... well most of the time i wonder...what is my purpose? why can't i just be happy? i mean, i'm ok now. at least i'm not depressed anymore. that's good. but i still get sad. i think about what i had, how i lost it, and what i wouldn't give to get it back ( Read more... )

i think i had a pretty good weekend. :) made some new friends... and someone who is a little more than a friend ( Read more... )

i don't want to be depressed again. it's really not much fun, but i feel myself slipping down that path more and more each day. i really have no friends... at least not any i can hang out with somewhat regularly. i've got the guys, but i know spending that much time with spencer is not good for his sanity. i have all these feelings that i don't ( Read more... )

i still feel a little woozy. could be the allergies though. last night was great. we were staying at the hilton in downtown. that was fun in and of itself. lol so... after gathering everyone up we went to the hotel and did a little prefunking. hmmm... shots of watermelon rum all around ( Read more... )

i'm feeling kind of left out right now. like no one wants to be around me. i don't know if it's just me or what, but it kinda sucks. i never have much in the way of friends, but then sometimes i do... then suddenly i don't see them anymore. it's like people can only take so much of me or something. maybe i'm just being stupid, but that's how ( Read more... )

i think i know why i haven't been feeling very good lately. i've been tired and just plain icky. i haven't been taking my medication... i didn't mean to go this long, but i just realized today it's been awhile since i took it. i guess she was telling the truth when she said it would make me sick... and i'm getting fat. LOL oh damn. i need to ( Read more... )

i don't feel too hot. i think there's something living in my stomach. serioulsy... blah ( Read more... )