I am fully aware of the fact that everyone I know and will ever know has their problems and mortal flaws (as I call them; with my failing command of the english language it's all I have) but what truly perturbs me is the fact that the people I hold dearest to me cannot and will not accept mine ( Read more... )

Wow I just reread my entry from about this same time last year. The load of things that have changed is amazing although I guess it sort of makes sense. Now single, with a totally different living situation and far less panic attacks I guess I could say perhaps it changed for the better overall. Still sitting in the exact same chair at work... as ( Read more... )

Sometime I feel really sad out here on Long Island and I think back on the good ol' times back home how everyone had so much history and understanding. Then there are times like these when I realized that I've changed from that person who was so happy back home, I don't relate as well with them as I used to. Maybe it's a more worldly feeling? I'm ( Read more... )

   And just what exactly do you mean the year is almost over? Oh that's right we've got a rousing two weeks ahead of us before summer appears and throws me back into the working grind. Do I have a job yet? Of course not. But I am DETERMINED not to go back to Hart's Turkey Farm. Bastards.
   So I've been having some problems attending class lately. I ( Read more... )

I've been slowly getting really upset lately because everytime my parents talk to me it's to tell me something bad. Half the time it isn't even something that I need to hear, like my mother decides to tell me that the dog next door is dying and goes on to explain how it's suffering and whatnot. All the things about college trying to reestablish ( Read more... )

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Sitting at work feeling oddly overwhelmed by nothing. Had an excellent 4 day weekend in which I did nothing more than see Date Movie and Something New and lounge about the room. That is except for on Tuesday when they actually kicked us out to paint our room. We had to relatively clean the place and sort of push stuff into the center of the room. ( Read more... )