Having some hope for the future is really important to me. Not much changed the last couple of days, except that I won't be going to school. My day to day life is totally unaltered, except that I can't really see the point of going through the motions of life like an automaton ( Read more... )

I honestly don't have any idea. At least if I were drinking I could drink myself to death, but its hard to smoke ones self to death very fast. I really can't remember the last time I was this down. I wonder if that hurts or helps. Not much helps, so it probably hurts.

Today sucks ( Read more... )

Just wanted to have a post today

I had coffee this morning, but was seriously considering not taking any, so that's an improvement. I'm really looking forward to meeting with my sponsor after work, and I'm looking forward to going to the gym as well. I didn't get into work till 2:15, but I did get some cleaning done, I went to see Dr. Jorgensen, and I'm in a decent mood ( Read more... )

I'm not feeling too good today. I got up really late, didn't shower last night, but did shave and brush floss rinse. I went to the gym and ran last night, but I'm pretty out of shape from my peak. In fact, I weigh 190 pounds, making me obese ( Read more... )

Its been a few days since my last entry. I'm doing ok. I have a new NA sponsor, and I think this one will be really good for me. I've been eating ok. I had popcorn shrimp Saturday night, and pizza tonight, but I'm eating lots of fruits and veggies too. I think I went into ketosis at the gym today ( Read more... )

Yesterday went ok. I didn't eat sugar, except some dried fruit, which I think I overate after work. I usually eat when I stay up late. They feed eachother. I stay up to eat and eat to stay up. I had some breakfast today, just an egg ( Read more... )

Ok, have worked decently hard today. That is a big one, I really need to train myself to work at mental work productively for longer periods of time days before deadlines. I think that's my goal for tommorow ( Read more... )

Well, I was pretty good yesterday. I left work early and went to the gym. I had a salad and veggie corndogs for dinner, and not a whole lot more caffiene. I took a shower before bed. On the negative side, I didn't go to bed until 12:30, an hour later than I wanted to, but I did get up at 7:45, ate an egg, went for a quick walk around the block. I ( Read more... )