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Ok this confuses me How do you count an annverry or what not is it by the day of the week you ask them out or the day of the month. I've always done the 4 weeks = a month thing and I asked out becca on [thursdaydecember18th2003] hmmmm but the other day was the 18th and not a thursday so that could also have been are one month? fuck this I'm ( Read more... )

So I'm feeling slightly better than I did last night I was pretty fucked up. I've decided to execpt the fact that I love my gf and she loves me, and that no friends can come between that although people can still make mistakes. Maybe I made a mistake yesterday by not leting her know how crappy a day I was haveing, but I really didn't want to hold ( Read more... )

I read all becca's old live jornal's or alot of them I don't think it was a good idea. It seems like she describes her ex's with the same huge passion she describes me with and that scares me. It also like I remember it was a big deal that I was the first guy she made out with on her bed with and turns out I read in one of her enteries she made ( Read more... )

Ok so becca came over today around 2 when tina had been here sicne 8 and we started watching a movie it was fun we walked to 7-11 good times and yah. Than about a half hour into her being there her friend who just got back from a 3 month stay in England arrived home. Yah and they talked in here for a bit than went to his car an talked tell I ( Read more... )

Ok today was interesting. I went over to becca's around 2 with my dad and we kinda just hung around, fooled around a lil but yah she just makes me want to like, do things I didn't think I could do take on the world kinda stuff. I guess she makes me want to be more than who I am today. So like we were kinda laying and kissing and talking and we ( Read more... )

Ok so I honestly have not slept a wink pretty much in four days. I've had this thing eating at the back of my head, wasn't sure what it was tell like pretty much today. I relized how fucken much I love becca. I'd do anything to be with her and to be around her. She makes my world go round. I thought you know it be like anyone and any break up. It ( Read more... )

OK so becca acted like she wanted me back now im pretty sure she dont weeeeeee Im gonna go to adance with tina tommrow at her old skewl Bently w00t that should be fun I <3 To Dance life confuzes the crap out of me mebbe Ill write more later tonight night

So becca's buddy dave died. Im not real clear it says in it places she wanted to spend her whole life with him and loved him and all. But than she says she loved him as a person nothing more. My head is spinning I just want to go lie down. I mean today I got in a fat car accident with my friend tina in the car crunched the whole front of my car she ( Read more... )

So I went to becca's we did stuff big mistake. Seems like im just left with an empty feeling after I do stuff wit her now. I mean it feels really good but I feel sick after and sad. I just think that I need to stop doing stuff with her at least for awhile hugs are one thing but the othet stuff. Im crying as I write this its really no fun :-( Im so ( Read more... )