i cant help but feeling so separate all the time ( Read more... )

i just insured my cats.
how did i get here?

all i know is that i love those little beasts.

my cats are still sick but the blood test came back negative for feline aids and lukemia. i am so insanely relieved. thank fucking god.

send happy thoughts to my cats bowels. they need it.

im sure that there is no reason for me to feel bad. plus, im fine holding up here with the cats and the casserole. i ve go five million things to do tomorrow.
laundry
prime boards
draw draw draw
start revising artist statement???!?!

oh goodness.

i think im surfacing in a way that is real. really real. the cat scratches and half closed eyes wont make either of us better. im good knowing this all. the mysetry is gone but the air is still there. there is no triumph here and my arms arent over my head, its just a step. the tensious silence hls been cracked back.

OPEN STUDIO BIRTHDAY STRAVAGANZA ( Read more... )

i feel like i really have to be deciding whats best for me in the next few days. i know my limits. i do. and faced with these possiblities i think i can make it but i know. i know. i know.

i played in the subway yesterday for 40 minutes and made 18 dollars.

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i have always wanted to love you when i can ( Read more... )

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