i'm in love.
i was just dumped.
i think i'm defective.

my birthday's in 6 days.

someone please make me quit getting emotionally involved. cause, obviously, something is not right with me. i thought i found one that would be around for a while. i was wrong. i feel like a fucking fool.

i love him. he makes me feel like no one's ever made me feel. he's nice, he's caring, he's sweet, he's stable, and he loves me for exactly the way i am. he makes me feel beautiful without saying a word.

i am so in love.

my pap smear came back abnormal. i have to get a biopsy done in about 6 weeks. apparently, my body just will not stop hating me.

i have a feeling that me and drew are going to be together for a while. i realized last week when i was sick just how much he means to me. and this weekend i;ve seen how much he truly cares for me. i think he is the most wonderful person ive met in quite some time. i'm so in love with him. i mean, to the point where i can see myself being with ( Read more... )

let me just say one thing: sex with drew is amazing. absolutely amazing. i'm talking head spinning, legs no longer functioning, words coming out in jumbles - amazing. we're pretty much a perfect match in every way. we give eachother the space we need, the privacy, the respect, everything. he's going to be a hard act to follow - but hopefully ( Read more... )

havent updated in a while. my life is amazing. i have amazing friends and an amazing boyfriend. he takes my breath away, weak in the knees, and smile constantly. the best part about it? we were friends waaay before we got together. what changed? well, one day i just opened my fucking eyes and realized that drew was one of the most amazing ( Read more... )

blah. i'm feeling rather fat lately. i know i'm not...i'm pretty sure i'm not. but i have that uncontrollable fear of being fat that gets the best of me sometimes. and right now is one of those times. good thing i already decided to start riding my bike to class...too bad there are only 2 weeks of class left. oh well, i'm actually really ( Read more... )

soooo, life is grand. i love my friends and continue to make more awesome friends. i have a crush on a boy. he's adorable. and totally crushing on me. it's cute. i've decided to keep things at a slow pace with him. i've been single for a while now and there's no need to rush into something. my new thing is making sure that the guys i date ( Read more... )

1. traditional western doctors can kiss my ass. i am so fucking fed up with their bullshit that it's not even funny anymore. if i hear one more fucking doctor tell me i have had tendonitis in my wrist, thus causing me all this pain for the past year and half, i swear to god i will cut their balls off. i.am.NOT.kidding. i dare one more ( Read more... )

so i havent updated in a while. here's an update on my life as of now. i'm single, i'm loving it. i absolutely ADORE the people that i've surrounded myself with now. nikki, john cortez, jack, tony, daniel, and of course lita and tom all make my world go round. and lindsay and kory keep me sane at school, lindsay is the shit and her friends are ( Read more... )