Why does love have to be so complicated? Realationships are about finding a middle. If one person wants one thing and you don't want the same chances are that it isn't going to work. It's not that you don't love the person but if you both want different things then it is very hard to make it work. Relationships are just so damn complicated.

This week is just not going very good. Tuesday morning I was driving to work like I always do. Everytime I had to stop I was hoping that I would make it to work. I was almost there and my fucking car decied it didn't want to move anywhere. I was right down the street from work. I was so close I could her the customers yelling. The only thing I ( Read more... )

When I woke up this morning it was going good. I got up like I always do. Got Kaelin ready, then myself. Before I left I made sure I looked at my phone to see if anybody called while I was asleep. I missed 3 calls from Anthony. I thought everything must be ok b/c he didn't leave a voicemail. I put Kaelin in the car to go over to Marisol's to drop ( Read more... )

Coming Undone ( Read more... )

I have realized that life fucking sucks. I am tired of not having the money I need to suport Kaelin and as well as myself. I didn't want to have to struggle trying to raise Kaelin. My mom struggled with me I wanted to give a Kaelin all the things in the world. I just try so hard and I just seem to fail everytime. My mom worked so hard to make ( Read more... )

Who know that relationships could be so complicated. It is posisible to be in love with two people? It is possible to completly get over somebody when you break up with? Why do you break up with people? Do people not love them anymore, get bored or just simply not want to be with them? Just questions to think about. I am high and my mind is ( Read more... )

DOn't you hate when you have so much to say but nobody wants to listen or you just don't know how to say what is on you mind. You have so many thoughts and emotions and you don't know how to get them out. Have you ever loved somebody so bad and then you find out that they don't even love you they were just playing with you emotions. Do you ever ( Read more... )

It has been a long time since I have writen in my jounal. kaelin is 13 months now. I live with Anthony and Chris in an apartment. I still fucking work at Calltech it has been 8 months. Don't have much to say at the moment. I will write later if I have more to say

Kaelin is 8 months old today. She is growing up so fast. It feels like she was just born yesterday. It is a little depressing that she is getting so much older and so big. I am still working at Call Tech and hopefully I will be there for a while longer. I just got to see Chris and his sister this weekend and it was so much fun. So much is ( Read more... )

At work we aren't suppose to be on the internet but fuck it I don't care. I sat her for six hours and took one call. On Sundays it is very slow b/c everybody expects banks to be closed on that day but we are open don't ya know. I am thinking about going to the place that Anthony is getting ready to go to they start off paying 10.50 and up, I only ( Read more... )