So this is the year to end the world lol yeah ok I so believe that. I don't get on this very much, I even forget it exsist hafe the time. Well just like most of my entries go time for change and yet another move. This move is very different from the rest, I am getting my own place and my own space to just be me. Kaelin is just about 7 and ( Read more... )

I swear the silence is going to kill me ( Read more... )

I am starting to become happy again. It was stuck in there so far down. I am happy b/c I am happy. Sounds weird but who know that if you are truly happy you will actually be happy. I am doing more for myself. I am broke a hell but I cut my hair and dyed it myself and did a damn good job. I am working out to finally feel good about myself. I ( Read more... )

I was reading through some of my past entries and realized I need to just stop thinking about the past and live for today. I have fucked up but I have learned from some of my fuck ups. I need to listen to me and not let people try to get in my head and change me. I have changed a lot through the years but change isn't always bad. I don't know if ( Read more... )

The animosity towards you could fill a room ( Read more... )

I try so hard to get the words out but why won't you understand ( Read more... )

A day covered in snow ( Read more... )

Sit here for a min
let me get it out
It was all to crazy for me
Never had the chance to see
To young to know
Blinded by it all

You never saw the good in me
You broke me down, made me fall
Torn apart shattered heart
Now whats left to pick apart?

I am moved back into my moms agian. It isn't as bad as I thought it would be. I am hoping I wont be there to long but long enough to get my shit straightened out. I have made it though another year. Time sure flies by. In three months Kaelin will be two. It is just so hard to believe. This past year has had it's ups and downs. I am still with ( Read more... )

Moving day is coming up soon. I hate to move. I am moving back into my moms yet agian. It is ok. I can get my shit together. Things haven't been easy for me. It can be hard and very frustrating to make it on your own but when you have a child it makes it even harder. I am hoping I don't have to stay to long. Just long enough to save some money. It ( Read more... )