Sitting in a bathroom stall, waiting to go home. Stuck at work for another three hours! I’m so over this. I just want to go home. I’m so miserable 😩 I just want to see my cat and cuddle him. I can’t believe I’m going to be alone on my birthday. I was planning on going to the hotel and stay a night or two, but I would be so bored. And being there ( Read more... )

I feel so pathetic taking off the whole weekend off next week. Obviously you know why..and if you’re new here, my birthday is on the 15th. I’ve made plans to do something but everyone is busy. Bruce has to work and can’t get the time off. My mom is going away for the weekend. All I wanted to do was go out to eat or do something fun. And NOT with my ( Read more... )

Some days when I’m at work (unlike today because I called out due to my crippling depression) I wish I could freeze time. Like, when I’m taking a customer order behind the counter. All the people standing around, and all my co workers buzzing around to get to the meat slicers- I wish it all just stop. And I’d be the only one not in freeze mode. I ( Read more... )

I like being reminded that I made the right choice no matter the consequences in the end. So I chatted with my friend Zach from work and he was telling me that things have not changed there. Obviously I’m not surprised. It just makes me feel good about the choice I made fr. Just thinking about how miserable I’d be if I was still there or if they ( Read more... )

I have been having a really hard time lately. The other day I had a panic attack due to my "first day" of work at Circle K. (The same place where Bruce works) I did not show up. Yeah, so I did get the job, but because I've been discovering a lot of things about myself, and my differences towards jobs in general, due to my neurodivergence, it's been ( Read more... )

I found this kind of funny that I started this journal back in 2005, 18 years ago. And I was 18 years old at the time. Wow. Since then, A LOT has changed. Back then, I was fresh out of high school getting prepared for college. It’s crazy. My little brother was three years old and now he’s almost 20! I had never met Bruce. I was hopping around the ( Read more... )

*Breathes in* *Breathes out* Ahhh…I am on my three day vacation away from reality right now. I’m in Portsmouth NH atm. At the hotel. Taking some well needed time off. I’m here alone, but it’s not that big of a deal. I’ve just been relaxing and chilling out. I think I might take a swim later on. So, some updates with me is that I officially quit my ( Read more... )

So, some cool things happened yesterday. Bruce and I went out to eat for breakfast and then we decided to check out the mall in Nashua. I've never been, so it was pretty cool. We had a good time, and that mall was huge, there were so many things to do. The only downside was the crappy food court, they only had sushi restaurants and no ordinary ones ( Read more... )

Happy Sweet Sixteen to the BEST Paramore album I’ve ever owned! This album will always be the light that guided me towards my favorite band and I will never forget it ❤️ Three cheers for RIOT! Happy anniversary.

So, I have some crazy news, today I got suspended from my job. I am not the least bit disappointed because I had seen it coming. It has been a long time coming, to be honest. So, yesterday I called out sick because the weather was crappy and I didn't feel like going in. That was my last strike, according to the "new" attendance policy. Which I ( Read more... )