i've been a little frustrated lately.

well, what do you know... i have a livejournal ( Read more... )

ok so in the last 7 days ( Read more... )

finding excitement in the smallest places. painting a table. assembling a couch. taking a walk. paying my taxes, buying a cookbook, bitching at the nyu card center (GODDAMNIT GIVE ME AN ID YOU GODDAMN MOTHERFUCKING ASSHOLES! ...sorry.) entering a cupcake contest (if you want to offer moral support and probably eat some cupcakes, give me a call, it' ( Read more... )

hints of summer hit pale skin and i smile. it's been too long since my eyes hurt from looking into light. flashbacks of cobblestone streets in italy, summers at the shore with sand under bare feet, flicker in my mind and it's summer and i'm happy and at peace. the day after graduation, sleeping until two then lying on the hammock out back until my ( Read more... )

i went to bed, woke up, and still feel horrified and humiliated... and i'm revelling in it. i can feel all of that horrible emotion residing somewhere in my head, and it's like i just want it to eat me alive. i want it to suck out my blood and eat up everything and swallow me, change me into something hard and smooth like muscle or ice. i want to ( Read more... )

sometimes people think i'm weird. i find this amusing, as i believe the entirety of humanity to be weird. it's sad for those who pinpoint me out and still can't see the complete strangeness of life itself and even sadder, that they can't see beyond the random commentary and slightly jumpy persona. it makes me feel like no one knows me. not even a ( Read more... )

i'm a little worried. exhaustion brings out the worst in people.

i like logic ( Read more... )

for years, I've observed. it's who I am. i've watched my friends fall what they described as 'head over heels', their priorities warping, their goals shifting to accommodate this other person. they melt into gooey smiles over sappy commercials. they slyly eye engagement rings in jewelry store windows. they swear up and down that they know exactly ( Read more... )