I have spent so much of my life so unhappy, and I can't do it anymore. For real, I have got to be happy in my life. I have so many things going right in my life and I have to realize that. At least I realize it, right? So, I have to be happy ( Read more... )

I always use LJ for the wrong reasons, which is why I hardly ever use it, but I feel like I need to write this somewhere, so it may as well be here ( Read more... )

It's been forever since I've done this ( Read more... )

Today I am moving to Tulsa, OK to be in the Ensemble of Tulsa Light Opera. I have never done a summer stock before and I am pretty worried. I know it'll be fun and I have friends in it. I'm just a little worried. AND The Hanson crew (angst family et al.) is cruising into town pretty soon ( Read more... )

So, I'm officially a senior. The school year is over, and I have no idea where the last three years of my life went. 75% of my education is done with, and I feel as if I have nothing to show for it. I know that my singing has gotten better, I'm dancing better than before, and I hope that I'm acting better than before, but I don't feel like I can ( Read more... )

I allowed someone's opinions of me affect my life ( Read more... )

I'm home, in Green Bay.

Call me if you are too.

Well, this is going to be a long one, even though I swore off this sort of self-deprecating, sad, sob story journal entry. To quote my most recent LJ entry where I swore this sort of thing off ( Read more... )

So last night I got really drunk. Too drunk, to be exact. And I don't really remember anything that happened, except I was beligerent, rude, loud, crazy, obnoxious and basically everything else that could describe a crazy drunk fool. And I woke up this morning, drove back to my house, after crashing on a friend's sofa and tried to piece together ( Read more... )

Woof. Words can't describe my feelings, my life, my dissapointment. I think I'm going to stop LJing after this, because I have realized how pathetic I am and just need to suck it up and change my fucking life, as opposed to doing nothing but complaining about it. Entering cryptic song lyrics is not an acceptable substitute to talking about how ( Read more... )