THIS IS THE OFFICIAL END OF THE POSITIVE ROCK AND ROLL MODEL. i have ben dragged through fields of thorns, im bleeding and my skins been torn and my emotional skin can take just so much. i need to evolve into something good, and this jounal as well as no_side_star and heroinarms are basically a testament of self destructive angst that leaves a big ( Read more... )

its always lovely to see B*. i had been in somewhat of a coma like depresion, fuck all y'all for thinking its the drugs. its the anniversary of what i thought was going to be so much more, and i felt so much younger anf so pure and clean and rid of the loser dust, it was a good time a year ago, it was so good. but really was it ( Read more... )

OH the boys the break me fake ( Read more... )

i love this time of year more than any other. i even love the sugar free heat of summer, where you can hardly breathe cuz it feels lke your sucking up dust and your clothes just cling to you, but it is september that i hold closely. everything is new again, everything starts over, it feels more like a new year than january 1 does. im still trying ( Read more... )

i dont watch tv. i dont listen to the radio. i watch movies and listen to audio i have selected myself and because of this have known nothing of this massive thing happening in new orleans. its so cliche right? yeah everyones on it, talking about it. but they arent. were so fucking priveleged in our climate controlled homes, going to our therapy ( Read more... )

TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey ( Read more... )

Sitting here on top of the world ( Read more... )

TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey ( Read more... )

following down to a sick and rwisted path, i flew and ran into alot of things, so i just went along with it. at first i was able to walk but then that subsided and all i could do was crawl ( Read more... )

he is dead. died at 21 and now my mortality is really starting to sink in. i miss justin. i get broken and miss FUCKERS. how can a person sleep at night when they know they have so blatantly ruined a persons life for the sake of drama? fuckers should hot tail it to portland. remove the "t: and phoenetically its sounds like 'poorland'. adj. poor·er ( Read more... )