I wish I could tear my brain out.

[rockkornfan]

I know no one really cares about me, and really cares about what I put in these, but I have to put it somewhere. I am going crazy, literally. Ever since she dropped it on me, I have been in a major depression and my anxiety has gone out the fucking window. Now, I am having these nightmares every single night. I can't remember what the whole

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[thisisdell]

thats never the answer, ur going to find some one. and ur going to forget about celeste just like i forgot about racheal.

[rockkornfan]

i dont want to forget about her though. she is my whole life. i want to be with her for the rest of my life. i have told her over and over how much she means to me, but i dont think she fully understands how much she means to me. alls i can think about is her. my whole room has things that remind me of her. i just want to pack them away and never look at them again, but my other half wants me to keep them out to remind me of her. its like my brain has been split into 2 halves and one hates her and everything that represents her while the other half loves her and everything she stands for. so i am torn right now. i dont know what to do. i need to see a shrink really bad. this is gettin out of hand

[thisisdell]

well i was the same way with rach, but then she really fucked up and i tore all my shit down threw it in a box and forgot about her. it made me alot happier. seriously we need to get u a chick, or maybe just a fling those help. =)

[rockkornfan]

i dont want a new chick or a fling. that would make me happier maybe for like 5 minutes and then i would regret doin it. i dont want to do anything that would hurt Celeste. i still really care about her and her feelings. but thanks for tryin dell lol