It took me roughly 2 days to realize exactly how much I FUCKED UP a friend's life. I feel really bad about what I did, especially since I've had the same thing done to me. I'd apologize since I definitely bear most of the reponsibility, but my friend isn't feeling particularly social. And I completely understand. So now I have to wait for my friend ( Read more... )

Hmm... I'm not sure what's going on. My parents were going to celebrate their anniversary this weekend, and I was gonna go home and celebrate with them. they got sick, so now the party's off. I'm also fairly certain (99% chance) that a friend of mine is extremely pissed off at me, and I don't know why. My friend won't talk to me, so I can't ( Read more... )

love is only a ghost on the wind. the wind that blows from the east. the wind, it howls. depressing those who desire not the company of others, and those that others do not welcome to their midst. Fie! I say. let ye without judgment celebrate life, not love. emotions destroy our self-worth. Truth and pure instinct, animal need, can bring forth that ( Read more... )

I forgot to update yesterday when I was in the middle of doing it, so now I'm behind. I'm on a pretty busy schedule, but I do what I can. I hope I can pull this semester off without a hitch. I'm starting to get pissed off at how long it takes thing s to get done regardless of what it is. I have things planned, but I either have to wait, or they don ( Read more... )

I went shopping at Hot Topic and got a bunch of cool shit. Now I'm working and relaxing. Man I'm exhausted.

A haiku:
Truth cannot be real
For reality is what
we want it to be

Yet another boring day. ah, well. I'll be brief, since I gotta get up early for staff training tomorrow morning. bye.

Exactly where do we come from? Is there a GOD? The futility of metaphysical contemplations is amusing at times, because it very distracting. When others declare in a stentorian voice "I know the truth about the Supreme Being" they are LYING! I mean, did you really just have a heart to heart with GOD? If so, what does GOD look like? In all honesty, ( Read more... )

What the hell. I'm starting to really hate my (non)existance. Why the fuck do I really even bother? Have I grown to fear the end of my own physical existance so much that I can't kill myself? I have become one of the lost sheep once again.... And now I have no way to figure out how to find myself. I have no friends, I hate my family because they're ( Read more... )

Working for 8 hours straight sitting at a desk doing nothing sucks major ass when there ain't SHIT to do. I'll be sitting for the next 2 hours doing nothing. I now just wait to get off, and I'll be doing massive quantities of Stoopid-Time on GTA3 when I get back to my room. Unless something comes up. FUCK-ALMIGHTY! DON'T THE FUCKING SO-CALLED ( Read more... )

Life just really sucked today. Despite the fact that I got my paycheck today, The rest of the day was so bad that I've been not only contemplating suicide, but cosidering the feasability of each of the different means I'd been considering. I'm pretty sure no one really gives a rat's ass if I off myself anyway, but I admit:It feels wierd thinking ( Read more... )