i have alot on my mind, my dad, my job. i am dreading this summer, i hate my job so much. there's nowhere i really even feel like working besides 4, and they never even called me back. i really don't know what to do anymore. i guess i'll just have to suck it up longer, pay my bills and save money. fuckin' bullshit man.

this shitty weather makes me ache. i got a new blackberry, it makes my wallet ache. im back at the hamlet, i'll find out tmw if i'll be getting a raise or not. i don't want to look for another job right now, but i need the cash. i need a change of scenery too.

no call back to trail, atleast i did the intelligent thing and didn't just quit my job, a paid week off feels pretty good. it's the best thing i could've done for myself, if nothing arises from putting my resume' out there atleast i know i've got the balls to try. i can handle the hamlet until september, no biggie. it's a job, and i need money to ( Read more... )

i hope i get a call back. i'm stressed on so many levels. getting a call back, having to trail, having to possibly quit, leave behind my old co-workers, my mother retiring, fitting into this suit. so much on my brain. i hope everything comes together, or at the very least i fit into this suit on saturday. i'm crossing fingers and skipping meals.

hell week has officially begun. my brisket still needs another 3 to 4 hours of braising. tmw night is a private seder and ala carte dinner, then a huge seder, then saturday breakfast and lunch shift and then sunday breakfast and lunch shift. friday is cooking for saturday afternoon's passover seder with jills fam. i'm busy busy busy with these ( Read more... )

i've been making a concious effort to eat better, eat healthier, i'd like to get back in shape. i have a feeling that alot of the pain i feel lately is attributed to the stress on my body and the increase of workload as the seasons begins at work. i need to start seriously factoring running into my schedule. it's been a while since i've done real ( Read more... )

I'm getting lost in routine. That's what it feels like, I'm just watching time fly by and getting fat. I'm not looking forward to the summertime season, I'm also not looking forward to confronting my boss about a raise, I hate having to do that. I need to seriously research my options. I can't be broke forever and I can't spend another summer ( Read more... )

i kinda hate this thing or maybe i just haven't been in any sort of mood to write in my livejournal anymore. i spend alot of time actually living instead of writing what i don't do in my life here. i neglected you for 3 whole weeks livejournal, will you ever forgive me?

<3 jon cano

i haven't written here for 3 weeks. i always mean to but then i get journal shy or something. not too much is new, work is slowing down even more, i'm going to be out of work for basically two weeks, i hope i don't get too lazy. i'm considering using those two weeks to readjust some things in my life. things with jillian are good. sometimes we get ( Read more... )

Cursive tonight and tmw. my nieces are home until tmw too. i'm happy. my favorite girls in the world.