i'm listening to the cure right now. it's also very cold in my house. i can't close.

pumpkin soup, pumpkin puree, pumpkin flan, pumpkin polenta, pumpkin risotto, pumpkin everything. the past couple of days i've truly noticed the huge gap between me and what a chef is. i'm light years away, my knowledge and repertoire is tiny. sometimes this feeling is exciting and sometimes i'm overwhelmed. sometimes i'm just worried that in my ( Read more... )

i'm still at the bottom of the well.

i've seen calle 13 which means i got to see pg13 live. i think i love her.

i feel lost in the desert, i've got the soundtrack for it. every time after i see you i become very depressed. i don't know how to bridge the gap. i feel more awkward then ever. i still feel 15.

it's my second day off in a row and I'm getting depressed. i only feel useful, important and like a real person when I'm at work. it's where most of my relationships are. i've been sitting around a lot, talking to bruce, walking bruce and listening to music, not to mention sleeping too much. my father called me and we had nothing to talk about, i ( Read more... )

i dug in deep today. i can be very heartless. i'm tough, i expect to work with tough people, i eat shit so why shouldn't those who i work with? it's a tough industry and a selfless job, i can't stand the lack of hunger and dedication. maybe i'm hot this week, i'm wolfgang puck this week and not ronald mcdonald. steve gave it to me straight, i'm my ( Read more... )

what more do you give to the girl who wants nothing of you or from you?

you think it'd be crazy to be so far away and so near.

how deep is your love?