It's been years since I gave myself the goal of producing one exceptional life work. Now while I must admit, I've gotten nowhere in accomplishing that goal, I must be honest and say that in the past few years, more-so the past year, I've learned a lot about life, myself, and what I'd like to call "the bigger picture ( Read more... )

I feel as though I'm coming up on the end of myself. I'm getting that vibe. That gut feeling. I don't know what it means, honestly. But I know that I haven't accomplished anything. I've walked on this earth for 20 years leaving little more than footprints in dirt that can be blown away with the slightest breeze. I've helped no one. I've learned ( Read more... )

I'm hoping these stabbing pains I keep getting on the left side of my head are a brain tumor. Or I'm about to receive God's word.

It's a shame that the only thing I can think about while lying in your arms is about swallowing .45 caliber worth of hollow point.

I'm hammered and if I'm not dead soon, I'll be really pissed.

I knew something wasn't right. I must have gone almost two weeks without feeling that depressed at all. But luckily for me, it subsided. I'm back to feeling like the useless pile of shit that I'm used to. God damnit. I don't care about myself, but I sure don't want these people I've been hanging around with to get sucked into my vacuum of ( Read more... )

I remember a time, not too long ago, when I had nothing but fight in me. Now I find myself barely having the energy to write these words ( Read more... )

I quit drugs. I quit smoking. I quit drinking. I start working. I start going back to school. I am not happy. Not happy in the slightest. I get cheated on. I get lied to. I trust no one. Not a soul. I don't want friends anymore. I don't want to socialize. It just doesn't matter ( Read more... )

I don't have anyone to talk to about anything that floats around inside my head. I don't really have any friends, let alone friends that want to listen to me or friends that I trust. So, I'll let loose upon my livejournal. You've never judged me, eljay ( Read more... )

I've been sitting at home by myself a lot. Just simmering. I don't have very many friends that I hang out with or want to hang out with, so I need some sort of outlet for the shit that I've been thinking lately. This will probably be fragmented. I'm not posting this to anyone, so I really don't need any comments, it's just for my own reference ( Read more... )