As I look back on the last three years I sometimes let myself sink into thinking that I have lived selfishly ( Read more... )

It's 1:30, and I cant seem to get my mind to shut down.

"Always be prepared," I told myself over and over again.

Despite my best intentions I have always fallen one step short of who I know I could be.

One vice, led to many others only bringing me further down.

The high was only met by immesurable guilt and self hatred.

Just another fucking

"Today is June 1st, 2013 and the last time I logged in or looked at this blog was two years ago. The strange thing is that I was in the same situation I was then as I now am. So many new experiences and life changing events that it seems almost impossible to recount them all. However, I have the same feeling of a broken heart and what I called "a ( Read more... )

As I sit back and quietly contemplate the last couple years, I get lost for a second ( Read more... )

I've become semi-used to abrupt change over the years ( Read more... )

This time of the year is cold, but the last couple years have felt colder than usual ( Read more... )

Anxiety greets him each morning as if it were some sort of undeniable plague which eats away at him during his waking hours. As soon as he opens his eyes each day he counts down the minutes until he can once again shut them and escape the reality. Try as he might, there is not solitude felt even in his moments of rest due to the haunting memories ( Read more... )

A long pause, followed by a breif moment of quiet ( Read more... )

Fall ( Read more... )

One of my dearest friends is getting married, and I could not be more thrilled for him ( Read more... )