shite.

[rod_swollen]

I’ve adopted an old man. Loyal, ferocious... cute as a button. This old man sleeps by my side, snoring away at the empty air. Empty in the sense that it’s soiled in a thick, bacteria filled, moldy and nauseating sort of film. It fills the half square of my alcove in the morning, but free is cheap and the lime is slowly working its magic under the

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[bluebearpants]

>The old man is young and playful, but I feel like the old man looks. I feel wrinkled on the inside...withered.

hey, i feel that way too!... 'cept i'm a 17 year old cat that purged several litters in my younger years.

>"Why does it matter?"

see, this is why i'm glad to be a mom... i use to feel this way... and this is where i should have written that LJ entry about over population and the cult of daniel quinn i lovingly embraced to blame and escape myself from responsible duty... and ties w/ that woodpecker book.

anyway... i am a constantly exhausted parent now so i dont have to worry about the deep stuff... i get satisfaction from sleep and a movie... one day i'll get satisfaction from sex.

it is true... the breeders are shallow zombies, but from once being from the other side... the dark side... i like the shallow end. lots of room to play and less exasperating from fighting the depth of the deep water that is gray matter mayhem.

simplicity rocks.

[rod_swollen]

funny im reading ishmael right now but im not sure i totally agree with it. some things more than others i suppose.

as for the question... i guess it would be different if i had a child, but then it wouldnt be the same question anymore. it is the question until a better question becomes a reality.

[bluebearpants]

ishmael is, what i deem, the hippy version... i liked the story of b better... more punkrock-esque-inyourface,motherfucker

[jamisue]

hey.

[rod_swollen]

hoo.

[vortex]

*Sniff*

That was Soo beautiful!

It's post like this that make me fall in Love with you even more...

Starting...followed shortly thereafter by finishing

[privatepraxis]

But, honey, it's Monday, and as we know, everything starts on Monday. I thought about what you said about your "holy grail" and I realized if I can't wrangle some kind of mastery over carcinogens that are hurting my throat then I'm not exactly on the path to self-actualization. So I tossed my remaining 3 cigarettes and now I'm off to gym w/Julie and I actually hope cardio hurts, just to reinforce the lesson. So thanks for lots of good talks this weekend. I'm wishing all my wishes and hoping all my hopes that things'll start happening and (as Dr. Seuss says) you'll start happening too! Kiss/Hug/Pat on the head

Re: Starting...followed shortly thereafter by finishing

[rod_swollen]

im sorry but you didnt get the memo, love. monday has been officially postponed until tuesday.

it was a dirty trick those bastards down at head office pulled on me. not my fault at all.

problem solver at large

[nefri]

so.
You should get a Complete Blood analysis done (about $50) and get the results. We can go thru them with a fine toothed comb and figure out what the deal is. This is what I have done, and although its taken me a year to even get to this almost-recovered state, I know I am on the right track. I think I have some diagnosis computer program loaded on my computer at home, I will search for it... you'll have to come by to give it a try.

Do you have a computer at home? I have some software for graphics artists if you are interested in persuing that. :P

Re: problem solver at large

[rod_swollen]

you should come by sometime and hang out. this is a fully operational hang out house. your company is welcome.

Re: problem solver at large

[nefri]

my phone is back online. Call me next time there is a big hangout session... i will be there :)