and i realized i shouldnt be mad, im just dissapointed because i made a lot of generalizations that turned out not to be true and i had a lot of realizations about people so, hey, i guess its all good :)
why couldn't i have just stayed with that when i was actually good. why did i have to do what i always do and just cop out because i didnt want to work.
i really miss it.
its weird cuz i thought this would be the last thing i would miss this much.