i feel like i have a gaping void, right outta my side. Im just missing a part of me. Yea, its over and it blows but how are you supposed to release something that you are completely infatuated with? Things like that just dont stop. Im crusing at a skillion miles per hour and now Im supposed to stop but my brakes are out. Everyone on the ( Read more... )

i feel like such a bitch being torn down over a girl. its just a hurt you dont feel very often and i dont really know how to cope with that. i dont know what to do. what are the paramaters of a relationship after it ends. how am i supposed to act. god dammit. i dont even believe in god. but damn it god damn it.

i dont have a girlfriend anymore. Its not too bad. Chipotle is only 7 dollars, not fourteen. thats pretty sweet. this newest episode of lost is the suxor. i think its time to move to a mountain. i think it would be cool to live on a moutain side chillin with some bears and shit. I could teach them about modern art and take them for rides in ( Read more... )

The world is a cold hard sick place and Im stuck right in the middle of it. I came to the realization that much of life has very little meaning. I want to interject meaning into all aspects of my life.

Sometimes I just dont understand people. I dont seem to comprehend the consequences of my actions, maybe Im goingn crazy. This horserace is down hill and my horse has a gimp leg and chipped hoofs with no shoes. Every now and again its good to go kamikazee but I cant help but to look back. I just want to understand, what do I have to do to make ( Read more... )

i woke up really early and checked the pressure in andreas tires. she left for home this morning. Im really quite pathetically sad. I really miss her alot, and that is a very different feeling for me. thats not to say that i have never loved somebody, but proximity was never a huge deal with me before. I just finished playing poker. its ( Read more... )

Monday Night Football was grand. Go Cowboys. There are currently 4 Xboxs connected via LAN in our apt. right now. We have been getting some mad Halo on. I realized the other day how absurd working for a living is. If you think about it, you work so hard just to get by... maybe not absurd, and maybe not even unfair; regardless it is something to ( Read more... )

today is poll day. you should go vote and try to help preserve the rights of the gay friends you are close to and the gay people that you dont know. Its not even about being gay entirely, if they take away gay rights, why not mexican rights, or tall people rights.... yes that is a bit ridiculous but so is this proposition. Not to mention the ( Read more... )

i was rocking way to fucking hard and broke two guitar strings. I was gonna put it all back together when I was suprised by a banging at the door, "SHABaNG BANG BANg.... Shiggity BANG BANG-t-da-BIZANG". I momentarily froze and thought to myself, "I wonder if we have anymore frosted flakes". Back to the moment, I rose on my feet an approached the ( Read more... )

Wow, I think I just wrote and erased the first line of this entry abour 20 times. I even censor myself.