Can I really make it? I guess that's the million dollar question. For months now I've forced myself to live in apathy. Keep all feeling away so I can survive this crazy rollercoaster known only as the real world. Survive without truly experiencing these things so I know I'll be okay. And then someone reminded me that the people I love are worth ( Read more... )

i've watched my life spin in and out of control. fall down... get up... walk.... fall down.... walk... get up.... its a never ending cycle of this and that and the other. i do the same thing everyday. i just don't know where i am in life. am i even going anywhere ( Read more... )

there was once a time when i could not stand the thought of being alone. i couldnt be alone because then i was alone with my thoughts. now its all i want. i just want to be alone for one day to blare my music... to writhe, scream, cry. i need to think, feel, know. i want to see, hear, taste the world around me and come up with MY perception of ( Read more... )

how did everything change so fast? i was okay and then my life was turned upside down. now.... man i just dont even know...it just seems like my life isnt even my own anymore...

RIP Christine...

wow brother. it seems that we burned for the same years. 05, 06, 07, 08, 09. i dont ever think we will stop burning, for i believe that we burn because we have yet another lesson to learn... and our lessons will never be over. one after the other. "sick of cycles, i bounce in gray." -In Flames ( Read more... )

i dream a thousand different futures ( Read more... )

haha the past is like the energizer bunny ( Read more... )

had a panic attack today for the first time in a long time ( Read more... )

everyone has ups and downs. i have mostly downs. it hurts so bad sometimes to think that the last person i was with is lane and that was two plus years ago. sometimes it seems like nobody wants me... someone please tell me what is so bad about me that people just get this disgusted look on their faces whenever i enter a room. why is it that im not ( Read more... )

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