Yes, it's finally come to this.  Well, not it has but it hasn't.  Mic said that if I move out, he is not moving with me.  This house is too small for our family so I think I'm going to move.  Mom says she'll help me get a new place.  I'm worried about furniture and well... y'know... paying bills.  I haven't heard back about my TA application yet.   ( Read more... )

I am so confused.  Mic has been talking about a divorce for days.  It just blindsided me; came out of nowhere; there was no writing on that damn wall to be seen!  He is so calm about it which is pissing me off.  Mic is not a calm person.  He is emotional.  Logic is my realm.  I cannot fight logic with logic on this! He says he is bored with me, ( Read more... )

Well, not really.  I moved out of Mom's house. Yay!  I can't say I like the new place too much.  It would be perfect if I had to one or two kids; since I don't, it's way too small.  We moved in mid-June and I still haven't decorated or anything.  Part of me wants us to just view this as very temporary while the other part realizes we should save ( Read more... )

  Foofy died today.  It was so.... weird.  I noticed he had peed on himself and was laying in a puddle of it so I picked him up and gave him a bath.  I remember so much red from the red clay out here just running down the drain.  I made sure to really scrub him to get as many fleas off of him as I could.  I always hated seeing him so miserable from ( Read more... )

Mic and I took Irelyn to see her first movie, Epic. I don't think she liked it but I do think she enjoyed the concept of going to the movies.  I took her to the jockey lot with me, Mom, and Dad earlier and bought her a few things.  That excursion was not much fun but at least we got to do something together.

Today we took Ana to Target and she did amazing!  She wandered around and I followed her but when I told her it was time to move on or to go this way or that, she didn't fight with me.  It was so cool.  I'm not going to push it but I want to start taking her out more.  Because of her good behavior she racked up about $80 in goods!  I'm so proud of

My kids drive me crazy!  I love them unconditionally and all that but the reality is this whole mom thing is the hardest gig on the planet!!! Irelyn does not possess a shred of common sense, and to top it off, she can't compensate with book smarts either.  She doesn't listen to anything I say, will not show the merest inclination of being a ( Read more... )

So, I woke up this morning really irritated because Ana did not sleep last night and I was alone in the early morning chaos that is getting the girls ready for school. I did grocery shopping and did not do nearly as well as I had hoped.  I am trying to figure out groceries for a week that costs less than $100.  Ugh, if it can be done at all, it won ( Read more... )

So, today I started taking Lumiday.  It helped.  I'm trying.  It doesn't make me "Dawn" happy but I felt a little less stressed out.  My mom was irritating me.  The woman just cannot do anything for herself!  She wanted to give Irelyn a tea party and teach her to play with her dolls, her idea and words, not mine, but she made me do everything for ( Read more... )

This morning was kind of rocky. I had a headache, not enough sleep and Ana refused to do anything I asked her to do when I was trying to get her ready for school.  I tried to take a nap but I don't think I even fell asleep.  After a few doses of Motrin and some diet supplements, things started turning around ( Read more... )