I've decided to take these Journal entries and transfer them to a book and update further in the book as my life progresses. That's right, I'm stealing Andy's idea. So this is it, I'm closing this account. Goodbye.

Or at least that's what I try to tell myself. Wow, I didn't know untill today exactly how empty my life has become. It's to the point where my coneption of time has been so far distrought, that it feels like it's both speeding up and slowing down at the same time. I catch myself zooming through thoughts in my head about the past ( Read more... )

Even after all you say, it still makes no difference for your feelings have not been chnged. Congratulations. You've proven yourself to the one that you are most faithful to. Be happy. I will only bring you down.

Hate me.

Don't cry brave soul. You should be happy for these tears. You haven't felt like this in years. Let it all go. Free your mind, your spirit and your heart. Let the sadness overwhelm you and cleanse your soul of what you have feared for too long. It is better to have emotion rather to be empty like you've been carrying on.

Silent death is all that could make a difference now.

I can't ake much more of this. The thought of being alone for the rest of my life is weighing me down more than ever before. How do you convince someone that's been broken so many times that they're going to have someone that they can spend the rest of their life with ( Read more... )

The time has come for me to give up. Usually I'm not a quitter, but in this case I feel it is nessicary. I have come to realize that the only thing to do is stand aside and wait for him to fuck things over like we all know he will do eventually ( Read more... )

To: anonymous

Last night I decided to check out the bands playing around the corner for me. In doing so I discovered a great band from ALvarado called "Wreckless." I told them how much I liked their music, they offered me to come hand out with them in the back and we popped a few beers. They gave me their demo which I took home and listened to all night ( Read more... )

My dreams come seldome now ( Read more... )