Its easy to underappreciate and underestimate purpose in one's life.

For me purpose is God, theatre, and pursuing freedom.
Yet, when I feel separate from God,
When I am unable to participate in theatre,
When pursuit of freedom is blocked by obstacles,
Well, It makes me feel a whole lot less than complete.
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I'll never underestimate the power of music on the mood again.
It made my morning happy.
and a roast beef sandwich took care of my afternoon.

and Kait took care of last night.

...lets hope this ball keeps rolling!

I posted, but I changed my mind.
I cant ask for anyone's understanding or acceptance.

Here I am in the web of life, a solitary strand, caught in the wind. Once things die down, I'll join the weave again.


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Today ive been pretty nostalgic.
y'know... just about everything good that Ive experienced,
like Initiation, Great America trips, or Couch Spidering, 
stupid stuff that shouldnt mean anything but does anyway.

There was a sort of freedom in my awkward youth...
when believing anything and trusting anyone were simple.
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im wondering where i find my solace anymore.
i find myself getting insanely jealous of little kids, like Rebecca's 4 year old nephew, who doesnt have a stinking care in the world.

society keeps telling me that I have to find a deeper understanding of life, but what if what i already have is enough?

I need this coming semester off, and ive never been ( Read more... )

hahahahaha

by the way, that was a really sarcastic laugh.

definitely not where i want to be. physically, emotionally, spiritually, psychologically, mentally... and pretty much any other ally you can think of. So, why do i settle?


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Yesterday was brilliant.

Robert and four of his friends came up to visit (well, mostly to see the A's game...), so Rebecca and i met up with them.
It  was really really nice to have someone from camp up here, instead of me going down to SoCal.
And It was interesting to see who Robert hangs out with and rooms with. They are all amazing guys. It was ( Read more... )

i think i understand a little bit about the funk ive been in
nothing is decided. nothing is firm. nothing is definite.
Im in the pre- stages. Pre-show. Pre-job. Pre-graduation. Pre-college. Pre-moving.
Its like those dreams where youre running to get somewhere, but no matter how hard you try, you cant ever go as fast as you want... but you keep trying ( Read more... )

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not as easy as i expected.

So THIS is what they meant!

...My multiple lives are conflicting again...
Too bad Im too stubborn to ask for help!


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