I've had this journal for roughly 10 years. Damn. Looking back I was such a spaz. I'm not going to make this some long heartfelt mopey good-bye. I don't think I should have to private my thoughts but I also don't think certain people should have access to them, whether they care or not. So for my own sake, this will be my last entry here. I've ( Read more... )

Screaming and scrapping, my head wants to burst ( Read more... )

I'm going to do things a bit differently so bear with me on this post. I want to go through some things that have more recently come to my attention now that I've had all the time in the world to gather myself having no outside distractions.

Revelations:
At first I used this idea to cope. We weren't right for each other. You're self-righteous. There ( Read more... )

My head is spinning. I remember now why I wanted to be sober. It was good while it lasted. 3 weeks and all it took was one bad mood and the right kind of persuasion. I'd like to think I'm more strong willed than that but I had found an easy escape. I suppose I knew the ending of this. Now I'm in my room thinking about all the things I don't care ( Read more... )

I could feel every atom in my body move the first time our lips reunited. It had been so long but they still felt so familiar. It was quick and formal as I squeaked a thank you. I guess that's what sparked it. His fingers entangled in my curls and I was reminded why I had fallen for him so quickly. It was the way he kissed. There was something deep ( Read more... )

You will fall in love with someone who annoys you, whose orgasm face looks and feels pathetic. Despite all of this, there’s something keeping you drawn to them, something that makes you want to protect them from the harsh world. What you fail to realize, however, is that you are the harsh world. You aren’t their noble protector - you are someone to ( Read more... )

If people were songs, I would be the track that everyone skips - overlooked and unnoticed. Apart from the rare occasion when someone drifts into a daydream - half listening and almost by accident, my lyrics will resonate in some way. If I am lucky, they might just see something in me everyone else seems to miss ( Read more... )

I am not the first person you loved ( Read more... )

This ship wrecked romance has been forgotten at sea ( Read more... )

Sex is not a goddamn performance. Sex should feel as natural as drinking water. It should not require confidence.
Sex should happen, because the moment is ripe. Ripening lips, ripening labia, ripening cock, ripening pupils, ripening state of being. Ripe and augmented and brimming. Your energy goes to your pumping heart, then to every external nerve ( Read more... )