Is there no end to feeling so mixed up inside? Six weeks now I've been brokenhearted every day. Does it get better? At times. But there are days when it's far, far worse. She means so much to me, and I so often feel I mean so much to her, but so often it seems I'm the absolute last item on the agenda. When homework needs to be done, it's okay to ( Read more... )

So it is said that "Fear is the path to the dark side ( Read more... )

So I totally missed the train when it came to end-of-year reflective entries, but I'll just submit mine a week late ( Read more... )

It's amazing. How can something as seemingly insignificant as meeting someone you've never met for lunch evoke such fervor? Such a desire to befriend? To protect? I barely know this person. From out of nowhere she comes, not unlike the flash of lightning ere a thunderclap. If all this truly is real, I simply know not what to say at this time. I ( Read more... )

I disappear for one flippin night, and in the meantime my knights go crazy on facebook. This team of runners needs no leader, but perhaps the only way to bring peace is through leadership. Is that my task? I feel the need, the desire... but I know not the way ( Read more... )

I really wish I could stick around for that promised full-scale update, but it just won't happen tonight. However, I do need to unload the thoughts on the mind at this time ( Read more... )

in my journal of all journals... i don't post a lot over here, i know... but it's because this is the blog i keep only for the most important of things. Over the last couple months these important things have piled up, yet I've failed to take the time for penning these thoughts. Tonight is yet another example; i should be in bed already. I'll save ( Read more... )

But, as we know... I'll never get any lip action again.

I would love to tell you guys about how utterly amazing China was ( Read more... )

I'm leaving for China in eight and one-half hours. I'm stoked, tired, and nowhere near ready/packed. Did I mention the 1 hr 45 minute drive to the airport at 3:45 AM tomorrow morning? hrm.